11:15 a.m. - 2006-02-14
I Failed the Full Moon & Isolation
I drank last night. It seems I have no social life without the Moose. I went in very sneaky and just sat and let the bartender guess that I wanted a drink. The coward's way out from ordering. The guilt free way. I didn't do it. It was a full moon and I wanted to. I had too many and now I must wait at least two weeks because I want to do one better than the paltry week I just made.
Think of it like cigarettes. Just keep trying. A week was good actually and started the process of getting used to staying home more even if I didn't declare myself a non drinker at the Moose. I guess that's the last stage. I talked to Jimmy W and that was good because normally there is no one there I want to talk to. That factoid makes it easier to avoid during other times like dart night when I'd be sitting there wondering what I'm doing there and thinking of buying a bottle and going home. I can't do that again.
Absolutely no booze in the house but I need to be able to get outside when the moon is beautiful and full like it was last night. Spring is coming. I don't have any substitute for the wild feeling except booze and the outdoors. I need to think about that. What to do when restlessness sets in with bad weather?
Starting Over ...
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