11:00 a.m. - 2006-02-15
No Drink 4 Valentine's Day
I didn't drink last night but it wasn't through any doing of mine. I had Jack over for Valentine's Day and to watch American Idol and by the time I told him that I was tired I really was too tired. I even got my jacket but the thought of driving so tired seemed useless. I didn't need a drink to sleep.
So there it was Valentine's Day and my BF was taking his daughter out to dinner and then going back to his apartment to sleep. Not a word or a call. And then there is Jack calling me all the time and the two cards I have received this year are from him, not my BF. The company I had was Jack not my BF. I gave one of my BF's presents to Jack. It was a stupid Pez dispenser but still he deserved it and my BF didn't.
No call from my BF this morning either. I called him instead. Useless POS. He wants me to make reservations for Cafe Strega or Paisano's. Fuck him if he wants to take me then let him make the reservations. I emailed him the websites. Let him make the decisions.
I don't think this is working. He's nice enough but doesn't give me what I need. He's still married and I'm second to even his car. I'm giving this one last chance. I'm going to be very specific on what I need to feel like I matter in his life and if he can't do it then we will always be friends.
But no drinking and YAAY! I'm resetting my drink free counter program for yesterday.
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